362/365 Between the endless Oak Tress and visiting grand-pop's grave.

47/365 Monotonous, Chaotic.

Monotonous, chaotic, mellifluous, solid.

 KthEdkwagnedkf when ppl lie to me.

Excuse me, while I gather my fury.

...

aujourd'hui, c'est l'anniversaire de ma mère.

aujourd'hui, c'est l'anniversaire de ma mère.

aujourd'hui, c'est l'anniversaire de ma mère.

aujourd'hui, c'est l'anniversaire de ma mère.

aujourd'hui, c'est l'anniversaire de ma mère.

"happy birthday mom"

"happy birthday amoristo"

what?

haha.

I hug my mother.

from her:

"Ohh, i love you"

"I love YOU more."

45/365 - CARBON FOOTPRINT.

Yeah, I don't know why people 

seem really upset 

when I show up at their front

 doorstep unannounced.

 Like it's a scary thing to do.

SMART TALK.

wungfu song on their blog.

www.ilikeniceguys.com!

"Wong Fu Weekends has begun!

 Check out episode number one!

 Don’t miss out on all the fun! 

Except for Philip who was pretty dumb...

Ted talks really loud, you’ll be stunned .

Wes made a prop, so he won.One more week until Ep 2 comes.Enough of this song, alright, I’m done."

DON'T STEP ON PEOPLE'S TOES.

ADVICE.

"WEUGHSDBVJKAGHVUQIHYJByouurrrrrrrmmmmmmuuuuuuuummmmm."

41/365 A LEAGUE OF THEIR OWN.

HIER SOIR, MON ONCLE PERDU SA BATAILLE DE LEUCÉMIE ; IL N'EXISTE PLUS.

LAS HORAS NO TIENEN NI PRINCIPIO NI FIN.

http://www.cancercenter.com/leukemia.cfm?source=googlesw&c=google_texasdmas:cancers_leukemia:leukaemia:broad&ef_id=1812:3:s_767974b1ac6587865e16922dbeb47a31_4229890731:S3XxA9BkOIYAABhWZscAAAFA:20100213002331

25/365

I like how I just told my mom "STOP POPPING YOUR GUM" and she threw it out the window.

I think I like geeks more than I like nerds. Geeks have that knowledge to that 1 obsession, their fascination.. Shows their passion, they're such dreamers :)

It's probably why

I'm the only person who LIKES my awkward teacher..but

(Geek Snorts* :3 ) <3 haha :)

Dictionary.com Scrabble Word of the Day - jauk [jahk, jawk]: to waste time. http://bit.ly/5hQPeY.

"But I still love you.

We'd have such, a great time."

If I had a planner to write down "I need a planner," then maybe I'd have a planner.

We're talking about you.

Hanging with the rebels in the roses.

CATHO LICK.

"Hey, Annoying girl" (Sorry, too general)

You've plenipotentiaried a bumpin, kick sound with that slow moving bass line.

DAMN MY GOOD TASTE.

wish i had a regular, male mate.

ourfuture is what we build it to be.

"No...of course i'm not embarassed by you" COLLEGE APP ESSAY

COLLEGE ADMISSONS ESSAY C

Joining the swim team was probably the most brilliant idea I've ever had, its

impact in my life; immense. That "varisty swim team" magnificently ostentatious

title became my most celebrated experience thus far. That discipline, the

vigorous workouts, that intense and exceedingly difficult training because of

my inability to swim; I'd signed up for the swim team. An hour and half

practice starting at 6 am. I increased to 3,000 yards. Swim meets installed in

me, such a thrill, a thrill so reluctantly intense it would leisurely evolve

into fear, but Swimming became my passion, my life. Having 5 different AP

classes to entice myself with, swimming became my relief; my love; my first

love a substitute; a substitute to the pressure, hassle, nervous tension and

tautness. Enacting without a passion is effortlessly inadequate just as an

action without a motive is rendered useless. Swimming allowed me to grow,

gain self knowledge, cultivated more comfortable in my skin, my spirit expanded

enciting that passion. Looking back at 2009, joining the swim team changed my

life. "Our lives are distinguished by opportunities. Even the ones we miss,"

now this one was my majorette of major inadvertencies, but now me without my

swimming history, is like Lemonade without sugar; an essential ingredient. I'd

made my way into february, dropping 26 seconds on my 100 Freestyle.Jealousy was

then introduced. I was offered a place in the District meet, a girl on the swim

team later ruined that for me. Insensible about this fact until the summer, It

wasn't until summer league, where I began beating her every time at every

event. Every last one of them. Those three 2nd place wins that qualified me for

District were over shadowed by the three 3rd place wins, eleven 2nd place wins

and my very own 1stplace win, as a part of the Centergie Team Houston.

OFFTHEHOOK.

I like imagination -- and the way I think things could be, had been, or should be -- better than reality.-KL

The secret to creativity is knowing how to hide your sources. -AE

We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them."

The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing.

"Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the the universe." 

 "A human being is a part of a whole, called by us _universe_, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest... a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."

"Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts."

A man's ethical behavior should be based effectually on sympathy, education, and social ties; no religious basis is necessary. Man would indeeded be in a poor way if he had to be restrained by fear of punishment and hope of reward after death." 

People like us, who believe in physics, know that the distinction between past, present, and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion." 

Listen = Silent A telescope = To see place
The eyes = They see
The Detectives = Detect Thieves
The Hospital Ambulance = A Cab, I Hustle to Help Man

http://pascalcampion.com/door.swf
ANIMATION

If you want respect for your past,
it means that you have a problem with 
your present and even more with your future.

The imagination can transform all sorts of
personal insanity into elements of self-invention, 
YOU NEED TO MAKE USE OF THIS.


http://www.yugop.com/ver3/stuff/03/fla.html
 DAY -to- DAY Calendar


IDIOMS
http://www.idiomsite.com/

Excuse my French:
Please forgive me for cussing.

Cock and Bull Story:
An unbelievable tale.

Haste Makes Waste:
Quickly doing things results in a poor ending. 

Hold Your Horses:
Be patient.


Excuse my French:
Please forgive me for cussing.

Cock and Bull Story: 
An unbelievable tale.

In Your Face:
An aggressive and bold confrontation.

Last but not least:
An introduction phrase to let the audience know that the last person mentioned is no less important than those introduced before him/her.

Never Bite The Hand That Feeds You: 

On Pins And Needles:
Anxious or nervous, especially in anticipation of something.


 

THE ANSWERS ARE EVERYWHERE.

to be continued... 3rd period tomorrow.

Am thinking i should just cancel my trip to paris?

and.

buy great things, an amazing camera, get all over ebay.

designer finds, sell on ebay. anythign really, overall, just want a good camera.

aske dmy mom to pick up on of those marcj jacob backpacks, and maybe the beautiful purse - almost vinatge chanel inspired!

afterall, i don't know if she will get a christmas gift. there wasn't any - for my birthday..so what's to expect?

one fifty before december fourteenth

The remainder belongs in my journal and not on my public blog.

Silver Coins.

Today will be a good day, today I am to practice driving, paint, sew, watch films, study & see my lovely friend. I will be happy, I will I will I will. I will embrace all experiences, because it is all relative and negativity is only a matter of perspective. There, I feel slightly better. I have just introduced you to the "I will be a peach as opposed to a wilted lettuce" mantra.

BUFFALO PARADE.
We have bigger houses but smaller families;

more conveniences, but less time.

We have more degrees, but less sense;

more knowledge, but less awareness;

more medicines but less healthiness.

We've been all the way to the moon and back,

but we have trouble crossing the street to greet the new neighbours.

We have built more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever,

but we have less communication.

We have become long on quantity,

but short on quality.

These are times of fast foods but slow digestion.

Tall men but short characters;
steep profits but shallow relationships.

It is a time when there is much in the window,

but nothing in our rooms.

Listening to: Silver Coins Angus and Julia Stone

So tasteful

Questions (Title: the Convergence of Twain)

Analyze how the poetic devices convey the speaker's attitude toward the sinking ship.

"To hardy the loss of the titanic was no frustrating  result of combined human vanity  and human fragility before tremendous natural forces. Instead, it was destiny, the realization of some grandiose divinely conceieved cosmic drama. The precise syntax, almost biblical in its simplicity, lends an air of dignity and grandeur to the poem. the reader is never distracted by superfluous diction. Images burn through, undiluted.

The trim, regular meter contributes to this effect as well. The stanzas do not ramble or stand beside each other in disharmony. They are pillars, clean, uniform and imposing. Their sequential numbering, in roman numerals, recalls Biblical verse, or some other passage of exceeding dignity."

epidamy of why i love words.

exuberant writers such as these.

writer: Unknown.

NICK CAVE/ ZEALOUS KNITWEAR

IRON DEFICIENCY/ JAI GURU DEVA OM

JUST A FEWDAYS AGO.

I LEARNED.

THAT WHITE PEOPLE ARE REALLY DESCENDANTS OF

NORTH AFRICAN ALBINOS.

SURE AS HELL DIDN'T KNOW THIS.

Here Are Some Photos,

hey nataliesgot anew video :)!

...just, addthatin, a little laterrrr

AN

INDIAN ALBINO.

CHINESE ALBINOS.

DON'T BE JALOUS IT'S HARD I KNOW.

TIME TO

blow you awayy..

seriously.finally chill

after the yrbook drama-stress-end of a friendship with yvette.

INTERESTING I KNOW.

I LOVE HOW LADY GAGA.

Used those Alexander McQueen heels

these to be exact.

& yes, my haircut, will..

happen.

-i'll quit swimming, after quitting? yearbook= -2 classes for spring semester.what-ever will i do?

haven't worked-been on here much, lately. my digital dairy, i pledge allegiance to you.

ok.

If you want respect for your past,

it means that you have a problem with your present and

 even more with your future.

I try not to be sentimental and obsessive about possessions.

I love collecting, but I hate owning.

Loving someone is fine, but

 they have to love you back or it doesn’t work.

 

 

Sometimes it’s easy to have ideas,

but somebody has to find a way to do it.

Often those responsibe for finding a way don’t have the idea.

 

Chanel is an institution,

and you have to treat an institution like a whore – and then you get something out of her.

 

FOUND.
K ARL L AGERFELD'S TWITTER

Prompt: Evaluate significance, achievement, risk you have taken or ethical dilemma you have faced and impact on you.

it took long hours of standing in cold weather, clever thinking, occasional false identities, lots of charm and preserverance!

Joining the swim team was probably the most brilliant idea I’ve ever had, its impact in my life; immense. With my greatest achievement as if tattooed amongst my skin. That “swim team” magnificently ostentatious title became my most celebrated experience thus far.

The biggest benefit was not, the familiarity/skill, the experience of being a part of a team, or the discipline, the vigorous workouts, those intense and exceedingly difficult training because of my inability to swim, I’d signed up for the swim team. An hour and half practice starting at 6 am. I increased to 3,000 yards. Swim meets installed in me, such a thrill, a thrill so reluctantly intense it would leisurely evolve into fear, but swimming highlighted my real passion, the one buried inside me. The core to deeming my lightness of being and discovering my art of escape.

“Fashion is Art, Art is Love, Love is Real”

Swimming became my passion, my life. Having 5 different AP classes to entice myself with, swimming became my relief; my love; my first love a substitute; a substitute to the pressure, hassle, nervous tension and tautness. A sincere epiphany; realizing swimming was an absolute substitute, a substitute for all the self made beautiful disasters; catastrophes; my colossal inadvertencies. I realized this, just two nights prior to starting this essay.

Enacting without a passion is effortlessly inadequate just as an action without a motive is rendered useless. Swimming inspired me to; \llowed me to grow, gain self knowledge, cultivated more comfortable in my skin, my spirit expanded and my passion flourished But now I lack that passion. Looking back at 2009, joining that swim team changed my life. “Our lives are distinguished by opportunities. Even the ones we miss,” now this one was my majorette of major inadvertencies, but now me without my swimming history, is like Lemonade without sugar; an essential ingredient.

If I hadn’t joined that swim team, there is no way I would not have been blatantly oblivious to recognize that my proclaimed my pursuit to be a fashion Stylist, A designer, An Author, being creative designer at my mother's own boutique but establishing an empire of my own beginning with a simple small boutique in Chicago as my vocifering true calling.

Walking up to swim lane was like “time to pretend,” but then it was sheer bliss to dream I learned that, “Our lives are distinguished by opportunities. Even the ones we miss.” Joining that swim team was my opportunity to prove to others, but most importantly myself, that with patience, passion, dedication and in this case vigorous training, self awareness it is inevitable, when you take the chance and allow yourself to cultivate, to develop, you nurture yourself by developing this self knowledge. It’s intense, worthy, and valuable. One of the most important things within this year beside my many experiences was... gaining a deeper slef-respect for myself.

Leaving fall semester, my infatuation began to drain. I’d made my way into fall, with the most progress out of the entire team, dropping 26 seconds on my 100 Freestyle. Jealousy was then introduced. I was offered a place in the District meet, a girl on the swim team later ruined that for me. Insensible about this fact until the summer, It wasn’t until summer league, where I began beating her every time at every event. Every last one of them. Those three 2nd place wins that qualified me for District were over shadowed by the three 3rd place wins, eleven 2nd place wins and my very own 1stplace win, as a part of the Centergie Team Houston. She had been swimming years, swimming was her life; swimming was my leisure pursuit and a part of my job. I pocketed methodologies, snickers, false accusations, and focused on my real craze. I am enthusiast of melodiously mellifluous and neat couture ideology, notoriously swerving its rules.

Te regalo   mi cintura
Y mis labios para cuando quieras besar
Te regalo mi  l o c u r a
Y las  pocas neuronas  que quedan ya

Mis zapatos desteñidos...
El diario en el que escribo...
Te doy hasta mis suspiros!
Pero no te vayas mas!

Porque eres tu  mi sol
La fe con que vivo
La potencia de mi voz
Los pies con que camino

Eres tu amor
Mis ganas de reir
El adios que no sabre decir
Porque nunca podre vivir sin ti

Si algun dia decidieras
Alejarte nuevamente de aqui
Cerraria cada puerta
Para que nunca pudieras salir

Te regalo mis silencios
Te regalo mi nariz
Yo te doy hasta mis huesos
Pero quedate aqui

Porque eres tu mi sol
La fe con que vivo
La potencia de mi voz
Los pies con que camino

Eres tu amor
Mis ganas de reir
El adios que no sabre decir
Porque nunca podre vivir sin ti



Si te marchas
Mi cielo se hara gris

Que venir por mi
Si te vas
Si te vas
Y me cambias
Por esa bruja
Pedazo de cuero
No vuelvas nunca mas
Que no estare aqui
-tu'/si tu te vas.
(Shakira)

MY FAVORITE POEM.

three things i Can do          s w i m.  s m i l e   w i t h   m y   e y e s.

three thingsi'd like to learn       italian, portuguese, Latin.

three fav. foods ripe fruits.vegetable soups& salad

things that i regret -answering the opposite of negative, once. buying that extra wide-striped, poof sleeved sweater @ the Gap.having that cube of cheese 4:14 oct.

just don't understand why my memory's terrible.

three things i'm embarassed to admit about myself

 

• 
  
  
  exceedingly impatient.i annoy people sometimes unintentionally on purpose..& i smile at myslef in the mirror.i like it, haha.
  
  
  
  

 

5 things on my desk 

1. 
   
   
   Globe w/ Hawaiin Umbrella at the top,
   
   
   
   
2. 
   
   
   Mint Owl Mug (ceramics),
   
   
   
   
3. 
   
   
   Lacoste Perfume,
   
   
   
   
4. 
   
   
   Paris 09/10 Planner,
   
   
   
   
5. 
   
   
   & My Blackberry.
   
   
   
   

i appreciate   t h o u g h t f u l l n e s s.

 

three things i love  being out & being home. relationships.

i'm afraid of      losing my memory, losing my mind.

people that make me laugh  krishna nisankarao, bhe, mysmellf.

three things i hate  - bleh. lacking passion, obligations& feeling remosrseful-finding things distasteful

i do every morning - .roll around in my own dirt. LOOK INTO THE MIRROR: "OH hello Amy Winehouse," my mirror says to me, I should say, this happens a lot more than i'd like. brush my teeth.

nate williams

FACTS:

#92 Fish can drown.

#99 You burn 20 calories an hour chewing gum.

#103 Frowning burns more calories then smiling.

#109 Smelling apples and/or bananas can help you lose weight.

 

 

(discovered at age seven)

My Favorite Poem

 W  i  n  t  e  r     S  w  e  e  t  n  e  s  s.

The little house is sugar

It's roof with snow is piled.

And from its tiny window,

Peeps a maple-sugar child.

By 17-year old Langston Hughes

I felt this poem displays a promsing connection with the author because it expatriates the same delightful sense of description. Both langston hughes and washington Irving BLAHBLAHBLAH. Lagnston hughes in this poem.... used inverted parallelism;chiasmuses and they craft the details in such an obstacular....because of their placement.BLAHBLAHBLAH.BSHET!

i lived those years, as do all young things, in a spell.

IN COLD BLOOD

Truman Capote

A boy of eighteen, sophomore at the University of Kansas

A solitary creature withdrwan and rarely communicative



rearded him as gentle and "sweet-natured"



An article about him entitled: ("The Nicest Boy in Wilcott")

But inside the quietyoun schoalr existed a second, unsuspected personality, one with stunted emotions and distorted mind through which cold thoughts flowed cruel directions. His family-would have been astounded had they known the daydreams Lowell Lee dreamed throughout the summer and autumn of 1958. (planning to poison them all)

• Two men reported secere dissociative trancelike states ...(perhaps well-organized amesiac episodes)

• During moments of actual violence, they often felt separated or isolated from themselves, as if they were watching someone else...

        ...The history relating to extreme violence, whether fantastical

observed in reality or actually experienced by the child, fits in with the psychoanalyitic hypothesis that the child's exposure to overwhelming stimuli, before he can master it, is closely linked to early defects in ego formation and later severe disturbances in imupulse control

(In all cases)... evidence of severe deprivation in early life



INVOLVED?

               prolonge do rrecurrent absence of one or both parents, a chaotic family life where parents were unknown, ouright rejection of the child, child being raised by others.

Most typically the men displayed a tendency not to experience anger/reage in association with violent agrresive action.

relic of human barbianism.

"it's a relic of human barbianism...the law tells us, taking a human life is wrong."



"it goes ahead and sets the example
which  is almost as  wicked  as the crime it punished.



"It isn't effective, it doesn't deter crime, but merely cheapens human life and gives rise to more murders"

Under a Mental Eclipse.

Feeds off Analysis.

CHAPTER SEVEN

Carthage.

"It is true that many creative people fail to make mature personal reltaionships and some are extremely isolated. It is also true that, in some instances, trauma, in the shape of early separation or bereavement, has steered the potentially creative person towards developing aspects of his personality which he can find fulfillment in comparative isolation.

 But this does not mean that solitary, creative pursuits are themselves pathological...."

[A]voidance behavior is a response deisigned to protect the infant from behavioural disorganiztion. If we transfer this concept to adult life, we can see that avoidant infant might well develop into a person whose principal need was to find some kind of meaning and order in life which was not entirely, or even chiefly, dependent upon interpersonal relationships.

ANTHONY STORR,

A RETURN TO THE SELF

-Chris McCandless: "Raw youth who mistook passion for insight and acted accodring to an obscure, gap-ridden logic. Mountains make poor Receptacles for Dreams.

But i believe we were similarly affected by the skewed up realtionships we had with out fathers... I suspect a similar intensity,

a similar heedlessness,

a similar agitation of the soul."

"Terrifying....Eloqurnt....A heart- rending of human yearning."
 -The New York Times



"A narrative.. arresting force  BLAHBLAHBLAH Anyone who ever fancied wandering off to face nature on its own harsh terms should give a look.
it's harsh terms"
- Washington Post.



"Compelling and tragic ...hard to put down"
- San Francisco Chronicle



"Captured the saga of a stubborn, idealist young man" -Los Angeles Times Book Review

Into The Wild.

sprayed layla wiht febreeze, so then i sprayed myself.

not overwhelmed.

feel a weight.swimming is my greatets passion, right now, even before it All became disastrous.
weight.late.fate.bait.kate.nate.mate.cape.fape!
hysteria.
this is all, just a bunch of words?
what is with me. when i went to chicago, i wasn't happy, why.
i realized. that whether i move there or not for school, it isn't always just going to be that fun ride, i always get out of it from hanging with fam.

right now i'm a little bit..
idk, nostalgic ?no, that's not it.

i love books!they're the collest thing in the world.
becasue i get so much out of it. i don't just grow, it installs a deeper rooted confidence, and sharpens my wits.


KAIROS

GREEK CONCEPT.

the right moment

"kairos is the intuition of the moment"
i need to start sharing stuff liek this.online, hdvhoshv;weoixf.

Ruinned.
ruinned?
"jesus, what have i done?" no, it's not that.silly girl go away.shoe.

NEW EPIPHANY
it flatters my pride to note that


... i am very attentive to the movements of body's these days.


PHENOMENOLOGY: is nothing more than the solitary; endless monologue of consciousness, a hard-core autism that no real.. kitty..would ever importune.