MY FAVORITE POEM.

three things i Can do          s w i m.  s m i l e   w i t h   m y   e y e s.

three thingsi'd like to learn       italian, portuguese, Latin.

three fav. foods ripe fruits.vegetable soups& salad

things that i regret -answering the opposite of negative, once. buying that extra wide-striped, poof sleeved sweater @ the Gap.having that cube of cheese 4:14 oct.

just don't understand why my memory's terrible.

three things i'm embarassed to admit about myself

 

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  exceedingly impatient.i annoy people sometimes unintentionally on purpose..& i smile at myslef in the mirror.i like it, haha.
  
  
  
  

 

5 things on my desk 

1. 
   
   
   Globe w/ Hawaiin Umbrella at the top,
   
   
   
   
2. 
   
   
   Mint Owl Mug (ceramics),
   
   
   
   
3. 
   
   
   Lacoste Perfume,
   
   
   
   
4. 
   
   
   Paris 09/10 Planner,
   
   
   
   
5. 
   
   
   & My Blackberry.
   
   
   
   

i appreciate   t h o u g h t f u l l n e s s.

 

three things i love  being out & being home. relationships.

i'm afraid of      losing my memory, losing my mind.

people that make me laugh  krishna nisankarao, bhe, mysmellf.

three things i hate  - bleh. lacking passion, obligations& feeling remosrseful-finding things distasteful

i do every morning - .roll around in my own dirt. LOOK INTO THE MIRROR: "OH hello Amy Winehouse," my mirror says to me, I should say, this happens a lot more than i'd like. brush my teeth.

nate williams

FACTS:

#92 Fish can drown.

#99 You burn 20 calories an hour chewing gum.

#103 Frowning burns more calories then smiling.

#109 Smelling apples and/or bananas can help you lose weight.

 

 

(discovered at age seven)

My Favorite Poem

 W  i  n  t  e  r     S  w  e  e  t  n  e  s  s.

The little house is sugar

It's roof with snow is piled.

And from its tiny window,

Peeps a maple-sugar child.

By 17-year old Langston Hughes

I felt this poem displays a promsing connection with the author because it expatriates the same delightful sense of description. Both langston hughes and washington Irving BLAHBLAHBLAH. Lagnston hughes in this poem.... used inverted parallelism;chiasmuses and they craft the details in such an obstacular....because of their placement.BLAHBLAHBLAH.BSHET!

i lived those years, as do all young things, in a spell.

IN COLD BLOOD

Truman Capote

A boy of eighteen, sophomore at the University of Kansas

A solitary creature withdrwan and rarely communicative



rearded him as gentle and "sweet-natured"



An article about him entitled: ("The Nicest Boy in Wilcott")

But inside the quietyoun schoalr existed a second, unsuspected personality, one with stunted emotions and distorted mind through which cold thoughts flowed cruel directions. His family-would have been astounded had they known the daydreams Lowell Lee dreamed throughout the summer and autumn of 1958. (planning to poison them all)

• Two men reported secere dissociative trancelike states ...(perhaps well-organized amesiac episodes)

• During moments of actual violence, they often felt separated or isolated from themselves, as if they were watching someone else...

        ...The history relating to extreme violence, whether fantastical

observed in reality or actually experienced by the child, fits in with the psychoanalyitic hypothesis that the child's exposure to overwhelming stimuli, before he can master it, is closely linked to early defects in ego formation and later severe disturbances in imupulse control

(In all cases)... evidence of severe deprivation in early life



INVOLVED?

               prolonge do rrecurrent absence of one or both parents, a chaotic family life where parents were unknown, ouright rejection of the child, child being raised by others.

Most typically the men displayed a tendency not to experience anger/reage in association with violent agrresive action.

relic of human barbianism.

"it's a relic of human barbianism...the law tells us, taking a human life is wrong."



"it goes ahead and sets the example
which  is almost as  wicked  as the crime it punished.



"It isn't effective, it doesn't deter crime, but merely cheapens human life and gives rise to more murders"

Under a Mental Eclipse.

Feeds off Analysis.

CHAPTER SEVEN

Carthage.

"It is true that many creative people fail to make mature personal reltaionships and some are extremely isolated. It is also true that, in some instances, trauma, in the shape of early separation or bereavement, has steered the potentially creative person towards developing aspects of his personality which he can find fulfillment in comparative isolation.

 But this does not mean that solitary, creative pursuits are themselves pathological...."

[A]voidance behavior is a response deisigned to protect the infant from behavioural disorganiztion. If we transfer this concept to adult life, we can see that avoidant infant might well develop into a person whose principal need was to find some kind of meaning and order in life which was not entirely, or even chiefly, dependent upon interpersonal relationships.

ANTHONY STORR,

A RETURN TO THE SELF

-Chris McCandless: "Raw youth who mistook passion for insight and acted accodring to an obscure, gap-ridden logic. Mountains make poor Receptacles for Dreams.

But i believe we were similarly affected by the skewed up realtionships we had with out fathers... I suspect a similar intensity,

a similar heedlessness,

a similar agitation of the soul."

"Terrifying....Eloqurnt....A heart- rending of human yearning."
 -The New York Times



"A narrative.. arresting force  BLAHBLAHBLAH Anyone who ever fancied wandering off to face nature on its own harsh terms should give a look.
it's harsh terms"
- Washington Post.



"Compelling and tragic ...hard to put down"
- San Francisco Chronicle



"Captured the saga of a stubborn, idealist young man" -Los Angeles Times Book Review

Into The Wild.

IT'S MURDER ON THE RUNWAY

Lily Allen Campaign! Promoting French Fashion Houses Fall/Winter 2009

FROM RUSSIA WITH LOVE: CHANEL'

PREFALL SHOW

                            RUNWAY FALL 2009:LV

                                

 

                                                

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                                                          "BRILLIANCE."

 

                                          IT'S MURDER ON THE RUNWAY   

                                        MARC JACOBS: READY TO WEAR FALL 2009
                                                       

 

                                                                     

                   HEAVY COATS, LUSCIOUS SILKS, SHIMMERING PASTELS.

 

PREVIEW SPRING READY-TO-WEAR 2010

                                                                  MARC JACOBS <3

                                                       

                "A Little Bit" of 80's Throwback: Exaggerated Shoulders, Neon Colors, Big Hair, Trousers, Oxford Platforms.

                              

                                     RUNWAY FASHION 2009:OSCAR DE LA  RENTA

            

                      Ultra-Feminine: Silhouettes, Classic Sensual Sophistication.Extremely Youthful, Ageless Collection.My favorite?The jewel toned taffeta cocktail dresses.

 "Romance is riding high this week as it flies off the charts and into fantasyland. Expect more intense feelings to be shared and more fantastical plans to be made, making princess attire a fitting choice. Let yourself get lost in the emotions, because chances are that this time is what you need to ignite every other area of your life into perfection." 10/17/18

 

 

 

All Suede.Mustard&Burgandy, Be My Fav.

Available Exclusively at http://zozo.jp/shop/flauge/

for a moment, nothing happened. then, after a second or so, nothing continued to happen.

black & blue. permanently black and blue for you.

"i am thinking i want you" "You Want Me?" "That's all. I want you."

Androgynous.

RUB ME THE WRONG WAY

This is also why i blogger,
who wants to read thissss!
haha.


Ohhh, but iubvnqeuvbakjv :)
<3 Senior Year!

I've been walking all day with a rock in my shoe.

FIRST.This Weather.

Sleeping innn, Skipping morning practice, on all the right days!:)
(everyone else was sent home
as soon as they got there hahaha.)
Swim Meet being cancelled, yipee!



Layla. [: i've missed her.
someone whispered "You. Enchant Me."
Uncreepily.





I saw all my friends, todayyy
After School & it was like
Love-love-love-love. {:

Before that!
Got ocmpliment from my teacher!
My hardass, but delicate sincere
teacher.

She said Ahh you will make..Oh
crap. i forgot!
Oh "an excellent designer" i was like.
whaaaaa!?? :o :3

Best Freaking Compliment.

wait a minute!
No! before that i was walking out of the restroom
caught with Paloma & idk her friend ahhh made me feel amazing complimenting me on factors, matters & antics that i honor.Value.
think he might be gay.

He  likes  "My look"- specified originality.
and "deveras, pareces unica, te ves que vas hacer...Disenadora.." :)

UNDER
FASHION.

in Yearbook.
my picture. THERE.



 it was enlightening. Hearing people praise?
no, haa blown away by them being, baffled, in-awe.. of me..sssilly




So many Asking,

for a piece of me "Something.. Anything."

After School was
Euphoria.
Last period to getting home.

The Frosting.

Lugares en donde fuistes amado

look around there's no affection, only infection.

"I love you"

yeah, no.
those words blurrrrr the points, cease to highlight those misconceptions and
(i only liked 1 person, for a very long time.)
Felt the need to justify that..

..ANYWAY. it sure as hell doens't clean up any mess!
BUt adds to the confusion and distress and lost-hopeful feeling that wears and tears on relationships.

One must remember,..you're adding a snuggly blanket
of redemption, and history and blah.

you got it.